I Want a Fat Hippo in My Head!

Mean Hungry Hungry Hippos

For some reason – I’m guessing it’s because I’m cycling into it – I’ve been having MASSIVE anxiety for the past month or so. More than I ever have before. It’s really out of control.

I dread the weekends. That’s when my family tends to try to get shit done around our house. But it usually goes horribly wrong in one way or another. Dreading the weekend because of this seems somewhat normal but dreading it so much that I’m crying on a Thursday night about what might happen on Saturday is a bit extreme, don’t ya think?

So, I’ve been searching for ideas on how to manage the anxiety. In the long term, I’m probably going to look into ketamine. But for this weekend, I need something that has a chance of working ASAP.

So, I’m googling like crazy, and I come across an article from Johns Hopkins titled “The Truth Behind ‘Runner’s High’ and Other Mental Benefits of Running”. I don’t run so I’m not going there. But I do like working out if I can get past the fatigue.

I’ve always known about endorphins and whatnot, but it was further down the article that caught my attention. According to David J. Linden, Ph.D., “[T]he hippocampus — the part of the brain associated with memory and learning — has been found to increase in volume in the brains of regular exercisers.”

And with that “increase in volume” comes improved working memory and focus, better task-switching ability, elevated mood, etc.

Maybe my problem is that I have a hungry, hungry hippo in my head, and I need to fatten him up? Kinda makes sense. Hungry hippos are mean as Hades.

So hopefully that fatigue can take a back seat for a few days just so I can reset. But that fatigue is a mean ass bitch, so we’ll see.

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