I get so angry when people talk about the struggles of quarantine

COVID 19 Quarantine Chronic Illness Being Homebound
Think about those of us who have been "quarantining" for a Hades of a lot longer!
COVID 19 Quarantine Chronic Illness Being Homebound
Think about those of us who have been “quarantining” for a Hades of a lot longer!

I think the reason I get so angry when people talk about the struggles of quarantine is not because of the feeling of having been ignored before. It’s the feeling of being ignored now.

There are still people that, when quarantine is over, will still be homebound. Part of my struggle is that I can’t identify the feeling(s) I’m experiencing so I don’t know what coping strategies to use.

I thought I was feeling alone so I saw a video about a flash mob group that had gotten people together virtually from all over the world during quarantine to dance together. I thought that would make me feel amazing. And it did for a few minutes. Until a voice in my head started saying, “This is not meant for you. This is for people who are struggling with quarantine. You’re not in quarantine. You can’t go out whether there’s COVID or not. They don’t even know you exist, remember? They’re talking to the person behind you. They just look like they’re talking to you.”

Then I just felt left out and extremely angry (I think. I don’t really know). Jealous maybe. Hurt. I feel like an outcast. Not part of anything anymore. I feel invisible. And I don’t know where to go for help.

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