• I Want a Fat Hippo in My Head!
    For some reason – I’m guessing it’s because I’m cycling into it – I’ve been having MASSIVE anxiety for the past month or so. More than I ever have before. It’s really out of control. I dread the…
  • TRIGGER WARNING: I thought I heard a slight humming.
    My bedroom is right next to the guest bathroom. I was in the middle of a massive anxiety attack and meltdown. My dad was in the bathroom as I was screaming and crying. Bellowing in excruciating emotional pain.…
  • This is THE Roadmap For Bipolar Folks with an Alexithymic Parent
    Made you look! There isn’t one. The end. Just kidding. But really there isn’t one. Why? There are 2.3 million people (1% of the population) diagnosed with BP and 1 in 10* (10% of the population for you…
  • I get so angry when people talk about the struggles of quarantine
    I think the reason I get so angry when people talk about the struggles of quarantine is not because of the feeling of having been ignored before. It’s the feeling of being ignored now. There are still people…
  • I smoke 15 cigarettes a day even though I quit 3 years ago.
    I can’t cry 24/7 which is what would be happening if I let go of all my coping mechanisms. I’m ALWAYS trying to keep it together. So much so that I can crack at what others see as the smallest things. I just can’t take it anymore. It’s too much.
  • This is the Perfect Number of Pills to Take for Bipolar Disorder
    If you haven’t been officially diagnosed with bipolar, you might not be aware that there is a civil war within the patient community between those diagnosed with bipolar 1 and those diagnosed with bipolar 2. These two groups…